Takin' Risks

well, just earlier today, exactly at noon, I took what other people would consider a ''major risk''

How so? well, let's just say all the odds are against me, but with my friends' support, I was convinced to take the risk- going to my appointment with the ''devil's advocate'' :D
Hmm... It went out really awkward at first on the phone, my heart was beating really fast I could feel it on my neck and hear it throbbing just waiting to rip out of my chest anytime 'cause just by anticipating it, I already became nervous.
The first few moments were mechanical, since I already rehearsed them with all the possibilities taken note of. But after I did what I was supposed to, which I guess went out better than I was originally expecting... but silence followed.
Then i remembered- oh no... I've been focused so much on predicting what would happen and what would I say in my intended reason for calling, that my mind was left with a blank on what am I supposed to do next afterwards...!
Silence... that was all that happened for about 10 seconds before I thought of something to actually say that has been bugging my mind ever since I've heard about it, but just right after I asked that question, regret soon followed; i realized that just by asking that question, I already left a bad impression of just being a leech.
And just when an explanation snapped on my mind on why I ever even mentioned that, someone texted me, and i can't reach my cell to shut the ringing up since the telephone i was using is wired on itelf.
But that isn't the worst part... The tone that was actually playing was a song that the person i was talking with is gets very touche about whenever I used to play it as well back then
So i immediately said my goodbye, a really hesitant-sounding thanks, some final words and disconnected, but even though I did those things as fast as i could, I still believe that person heard the song since it was already on the 1st verse, with maximum volume playing...!
And just when I actually disconnected the phone, did I remember a question I've been meaning to ask that person for a very long time already, that I was supposed to ask instead of that ''too personal, too soon'' hell of an offending topic... !
Wow, I could've died of regret and 'what if' questions right then and there since it was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity i just cut short... stupid song... stupid cellpone, stupid wired telepone!!! :(

But as of now, I realized that even if risks are dangerous to take, it always has a chance to turn out alright. Mine might not have gone the most smoothly, but it did turn out better that what I previously imagined. Fear of the unknown is just a clouded illusion toward the better progress.

I'm listening to: Demi Lovato - don't forget