Change

CHANGE

intro
Now all that’s left
Are the pieces to find
The mystery you kept
The soul behind a guise

Verse 1
You were once the crybaby who always came to me
The one who never lets out but always lets me in
Now it must be hard living with ghosts in an empty shell
Tell me, why ‘d you need to change, why have you changed

Chorus 1
The pain whenever I remember you still lingers
Scars that could only be described as sorrow
We were so strong, what happened, how could I forget
I can’t take this change, it’s a black hole, slowly devouring me

Verse 2
I was once the oddball who always came to you
The one who loved you and never noticed it
Now it’s really hard living with ghosts in an empty shell
Tell me, why ‘d you need to change, why have you changed

Chorus 2
The hurt whenever I remember you still remains
Tears that could only be described as regret
We were so strong, what happened, how could we forget
I can’t take this change, it’s a black hole, slowly devouring us
Bridge 1
Whatever happened to ‘’I will never let you go’’
That broken promise was just an empty lie after all
The one I knew before would never have forsaken that
But I guess you’ve changed

Bridge 2
Selling your soul to the enemy
Don’t let them get into your mind
Because once this heart-break is over
maybe you’ll change

coda
Change to the person I knew,
change to the person I’ve loved
I won’t let go of your promise
I won’t forsake what’s left of us

Final chorus
The ache whenever I remember you still throbs
Remnants that could only be described as emptiness
We were so strong, what happened, how could we forget
I can’t take this change, it’s a black hole, slowly devouring us

outro
I feel like the world is fighting against me
All the changes coming in tidal waves
I need somebody to hold my heart
But I know only yours could fit

so, how is my first song? pls have mercy, this is the first real song i made, so the songwriting skills are just amateurish, the P-S crossovers in my other blog doesn't count anyway :)

Chanced Meeting... or Fate?

''Who knew a bathroom could be so dangerous?''

okay, so this day, we watched a very ''interesting'' musical in the theater and during the intermission, I took the chance to go to the CR
When I entered, I suddenly became cautious of your presence since I saw your friends there
Just when I thought the coast was clear, I went back to normal and did my usual thing
Then... suddenly I heard someone talk about colored contacts, and since I'm the only one I knew who wore colored contacts, I got curious and glanced at the person who was talking about it.
And poof... suddenly you were behind me talking to your friends about it, I wasn't sure if you noticed me, but since you were just talking about me, I guess you did...
then somebody turned the lights off and the whole room became dark, everybody was going crazy both of anxiety and excitement, but then I felt someone grab me by my shoulders
by the time they lighted the pitch-black CR again, everybody was already going out since the play's about to start, with you at the last of the people leaving
I still wonder who was that who grabbed me when everybody was in chaos, then I remembered that you were the person behind me before the lights were off
I'm still rationalizing with myself and thinking it was all just an accident, but at the back of my mind, I was wishing it wasn't, I mean, you were looking at me when the lights were turned on.
After that, i went to look for you before the play starts, but there you go again, disappereaing just when I want to talk to you, and appearing when I don't.
i guess filling my soul up with lies and fantasies isn't the best way to get over you, but I still want to believe that you still care and convince myself that this chanced meeting is fate...

''why the hell am I letting you take over my life...''

Illusions of the Phantom that is You

what hurts the most to hear...? Because you already gave the sign of all three

''i hate you''
''i never loved you to begin with''
''i almost fell for you''

did you ever mean the things you said? do you even mean the things you're saying right now?

-- If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with. --

you never said you take it back, and yet you didn't say you don't... everything about you changed, so i ask: am I still talking to the one I loved, or just a stranger who looks like you?

~you used to be so much easier to read. now the lies are blanketed and the truth is hidden. tell me: what is within those deep eyes of yours?~

I'm still waiting here, stuck in the past, while you've obviously moved on, i'm not a stranger to love, you already shattered my heart and made me tougher, but i am a stranger to your heart, a weakling to your voice, your eyes, your face...

IS THIS EVER GOING TO STOP IF WE KEEP ON SEEING EACH OTHER EVERY DAY....?!?!

Moving On

''They say that love makes a person happy''
''But not if the one you love likes someone else''
''More so that that same person loves your best friend''
''And you can't say anything 'cause you might ruin them''

I thought we've just talked things through
Though we have already overcome the tide
You never did mean a thing, bluffing
Just said those things to get rid of me

But I'm thankful that has happened
It triggered myself to follor my mind
For once, I didn't dream of you, of us
'cause I think I'm finally moving on

''And so I'm here in the middle of the chaos''
''Feeling hopeless, I'm already giving so much''
''And even though I've never asked for something in return,''
''All I need is someone to break through the crowd and find me''

I'm listening to: Secondhand Seranade - Fall For You